Its been a while, or maybe too long for a while, since i have written a post. I didn't even continue with a second post for my Summer 15' hahaha (and its already Winter 15' now!!!). But then again, thank you to those who took the time to pop by here every now and then to read my rambles or whatnot. I'm writing this a couple of days before the new year and scheduling for it to appear on the last day of 2015 because i want this to sort of be a recap post? I didn't manage to post anything up since the last, so i should do this at the very least right?
2015 has been a year full of ups and downs for me. I felt like i have learned a great deal out of this year as compared to the many other years that i have been through. I stepped out of my comfort zone this summer, went on an OCSP trip to Philippines and became a faci for a camp, despite not knowing anyone at first. It was truly an eye-opening experience to stay in a village in Philippines, interacting with the children and villagers, living the village life and doing what we can for them. Even up till today, i'm telling most people around me that i do miss that 10 days there. That simple, happy and carefree life over there. Of course, one might think that how could a person be happy when you are poor or you haven't really live life to the fullest if you don't have this or haven't done that. But you know what, it is the simplest things in life that brings the greatest joy. We should always appreciate what we have, even if it is just the bare minimal. I gained a lot while being in Philippines but at the same time, i lost someone in Singapore. I guess i have never got down to sharing this to my closer friends in the same ocsp at that point in time or to anyone else, even when i'm back in Singapore. But during the trip, i unintentionally found out that my grandma passed away on my last day of the village stay, the day before i left for Boracay the next morning. It was unintentional because my family did not want to let me know and its only when i received a "i heard about your grandma. how are you feeling" facebook message from a relative, then did i knew. I couldn't get back in time for my grandma's funeral or cremation either.
Even up till today, i still feel sad about not being able to attend my grandma's funeral or cremation. I didn't even get to see her face or call her popo for the last time. I have never been really close to my grandma because i can't speak her dialect (my hainanese is really really limited) but still, she's my grandma, the grandma whom i visited every week, the grandma who have changed so much over the years, the grandma whom i always ask "ho jiak bo (nice to eat or not)". I feel sorry for not being able to make it back in time, but at least, i know she is in a better place now.
I could go on and talk about all the other bad things that have been happening in recent months but i guess, i don't really want to end this post on a super sad note. So, on a much lighter note, i can't believe that i'm already 21! I didn't had a party (i absolutely don't like the happy birthday song because its so awkward) but i'm still happy nonetheless. So thankful and grateful to those who have made the time to meet up and celebrate it for me. Of course, to those who have also sent me a text/whatsapp/facebook message/private message/letter to wish me a happy birthday, thank you so much too :)
2015 is ending in the blink of an eye. Although it has been pretty much a rough year, it wasn't entirely bad too, i guess. But you know what? I sincerely hope that 2016 will be much much much better year. Not just for me, but for everyone around me as well.
Stay safe and happy always, guys xxxxxx
